EYES FOR DREAMS

EYES FOR DREAMS

IIT, surely an institute with greatness in every single brick of its foundation. Every single Indian soul talk about it, someday or somewhere, what do they talk? About some of those brilliantly minded arjun who managed to nail the eye of this glittering and golden fish called INDIAN INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY. Very true, people never talk about them who somehow missed the aim, or if they talk, its just to increase the level of grief of them who already are suffering and will suffer throughout their life because of the level of chaos this institute has created.

 I know a boy who felt the pain of the rejection and shattering of dreams so well preserved for so long a time. Go to the top floor of the tallest building in this universe and drop a sheet of glass, this was the photograph of the dream he saw and for worse, he had to collect all those tiny particles by himself and give it a shape again.

Like each and every Indian youth, he had a dream to flourish his career through the “great” IIT. Everyone surrounding him thought he would surely compete except his own soul because he was a negative minded guy or perhaps he visualised the reality. I don’t know, was there any loophole in his efforts or the game of fate but he lost his dream of 3 years in just 6 hours.

This affected his performance in the upcoming exams as he lost faith on himself, on studies, on fate and on God. He started killing time when the rest of the world was busy cracking other exams. His style of study and learning perhaps never suited the patterns of examination. Was this his fault? Obviously, it was.

Burden of expectation is the heaviest of all and that followed by dreams make it even more critical. This was his fate. He secured pretty well throughout his career till now and was a class topper but today he is a loser as he lost dreams, not only his but his father and mother’s.

Competing and winning gives a pleasure which can’t be measured and he used to feel it every now and then up to 12^th, but the frog saw the ocean now. IIT was gone and so were his dreams. Now he just wanted to get admission in any good institute what so ever. Everything is written in the destiny. Sometime something becomes inevitable and then people feel the power of luck and Almighty.

Friendship and surrounding has a great impact on a man. Till std. 4^th he was a guy full of confidence. I sometime felt smell of overconfidence but then came a boy who used to spread wrong messages among his friends by under-estimating himself in front of his friends but still securing top rank. This was a turning point. It seems to be a very small situation but had a great impact on his mind as slowly he started doing the same which led to lack of confidence in him, which can be seen after so long. His positive attitude vanished and the negative counterpart took over the crown. I think people who show off, try to discourage you and who under-estimate themselves create a negative atmosphere around you. Avoid both of them. Be natural and practical.

What would happen if he misses the JEE? What the SOCIETY would say? What papa would think? So much money was spent just for this, what would happen if….? These were the questions hovering over his head all the time. He tried. I will not say his best as I don’t know his potential but one thing I know is that he had an attitude. Every single question was a challenge for him. He used to fight every challenge till the end. He was a fighter.

I also know that he always thought of happiness of his family, about the home, about the village, about the country, but never about himself. I guess he should not have thought only, but acted as well. But I am not so wise to command him. His life is a mirror of any middle class boy whose dreams were mightier than strength. I don’t know why but he always had something to ponder about. Sometimes his physique, sometimes his weak points, his studies and most of the time comparison with others. One should never compare with others but instead try to enhance himself. The biggest enemy as well as friend of a person is the person whose image he used to watch daily in mirror- himself.

I often heard him talking to his mother and sharing his problems. I don’t know how to tell him that your mother herself has a lot of problem and you are adding to it. Please tell him to improve his calculations. At an average, people live 60 years and he lived one-third of it. He is a negative personality with a lot to achieve but nothing yet.

He used to believe in astrology and the predictions of others but not in himself. Someone said he is sharp, he will definitely crack it, someone said he is achieving till date so will he further, etal. Moreover his father used to narrate stories of IITians around him and had a glow in his eyes that one day he will tell about his son. Don’t you think, this exerts a pressure over his brain? He always tried to stand tall over the expectations but God had something else in his memory card.

What was the problem? I don’t know and neither did he himself. I tried to talk but every time he is sad, he is silent, silent as dead. Every chance of proving himself was diminishing and so was fading the glittering shine in his father’s eyes. His dreams of happiness shattered every time and ended up with grief for himself and his family. For the last three years, so much money was spent just for him but he failed to stand worth it. A person of middle class background can’t afford, but his father did just because he had a dream for his son, a shining star in his horizon. Instead had to see an eclipse.

He always used to say NO, and that’s what happened. Whether he was under-estimating himself or others were over-estimating him? I think he was correct when he said- don’t live in dreams, its illusion. Do your work and rest is your fate. This was his personal bitter experience. One should never say NO to any situation without attempting, be it impossible. YES, you can do it.

Did he select the wrong target or the wrong arrow to aim? Every target has a specific arrow which can penetrate it, search for the correct one. Anyways his fate is a little moody. Twists and turns in his academics are of great concern. Most important was year 2009, when he met his dream for the first time- IIT. Years passed and yet again are the time when it haunts. One success can lead you to the other and similar is the case with a failure. Newton’s first law of motion- the concept of inertia. You definitely need an external agent for motion. He is afraid of failure, fear to confront a situation, just because of this fear to fail. World, a complex place to live, where everything is nothing and nothing is everything.

I can just suggest him to move on and look for other opportunities but is it so easy to collect those pieces of broken glass and cast a new image out of it?